I see myself as a mistake of birth and a creature too low to be called a human any compliments I believe them but I don’t believe me. Why can’t I just die I would be at peace I wouldn’t even want a memorial. Why did God create me to curse me with this mind body and soul I don’t want to think about him lately because my rage at Him for not understanding this crap for 6 years im sick of it and I find it better to act as if he isn’t even there. If he would fix me I would rejoice but he’s not going to do it and I’m sick of hoping he’ll do so
I may as well be an atheist and Christian simultaneously.
