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An Introduction
Men have always told stories about gods. Before there were cities there were myths: of a god who stole fire, of a man condemned to roll a stone up a hill forever, of a woman who looked back. They were told around fires and carved on temple walls, and they are still told. Our age calls itself too wise for gods, and yet it has never stopped reaching for them. It fills its screens with heroes and titans and tricksters. It buys the old myths retold in new covers. The world is hungry for myth, and it will feed that hunger with whatever is set before it.
These stories are set before it on purpose.
What These Stories Are
Every god in these pages is invented from my imagination and drawing from inspiration from the past of ancient literature. None of them was ever worshipped, and none of them is real. Their names are built from Greek words, and their shapes are borrowed from the old myths, but they are fabrications, and they are meant to be read as fabrications. Each story is short and stands alone. There is no map to learn and no lineage to memorize. A god appears, a mortal comes before him, and something is given or taken or weighed. Then the story ends, as the old myths ended, without apology.
After each story there is a case study. The myth is the question; the case study is the answer. There the fiction is set down beside the Scriptures, and it is shown what the story was pointing at all along.
What These Stories Are Not
They are not Scripture, and they do not pretend to be. The Bible is not myth. It is true, and what it records happened. Peter wrote, “We have not followed cunningly devised fables, when we made known unto you the power and coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, but were eyewitnesses of his majesty” (2 Peter 1:16). These stories are the opposite of that. They are devised, and they say so. They do not add to the Word of God; they point to it.
Paul warned that a time would come when men “shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables” (2 Timothy 4:4). That time is here. These myths are written for the ears that have already turned, and they are written to turn them back. A friend was telling me how there was something going on TikTok people saying that Jesus is related to Harry Potter…. What more can I say about this?
Why Write Them
Scripture is not without its own invented stories. When Abimelech made himself king over Shechem, Jotham stood on Mount Gerizim and told a fable of the trees who went forth to anoint a king over them, and how the bramble accepted the crown (Judges 9). When David took another man’s wife and killed the man to hide it, the prophet Nathan did not begin with a rebuke. He told a story of a rich man who stole a poor man’s one ewe lamb, and David burned with anger at the injustice of it, until Nathan said, “Thou art the man” (2 Samuel 12:7). And the Lord Jesus taught the multitudes in parables, “and without a parable spake he not unto them” (Matthew 13:34).
A story can slip past the guard that a sermon cannot. A man who will not hear that he is a sinner will listen to a tale about someone else, and find himself in it before he knows.
When Paul stood on the Areopagus in Athens, surrounded by the altars of their gods, he did not begin with Moses. He began with their own poets: “For in him we live, and move, and have our being; as certain also of your own poets have said, For we are also his offspring” (Acts 17:28). He took up the language of the Greeks to speak of the God the Greeks did not know. Elsewhere he wrote, “Though I be free from all men, yet have I made myself servant unto all, that I might gain the more… I am made all things to all men, that I might by all means save some” (1 Corinthians 9:19, 22).
That is the intent here. The world will take up myth whether or not it points anywhere. These myths are meant to point somewhere.
How to Read Them
Read the story first, and let it do its work. Do not skip ahead to the case study. Sit with the god, and the mortal, and whatever befalls him. Some of these gods are cruel. Some are exact without being good. None of them is the true God, and the gap between them and Him is part of what the stories mean to show. Where a false god weighs and curses, the true God weighs and then provides the payment Himself.
Then read the case study, and open your Bible beside it.
These stories do not soften truth, and they do not withhold grace. Some are hard. They are not written to leave a man in the pit the story dug for him. Every myth here ends in the same place, whether it gets there by warning or by mercy: at the feet of the One who is not a myth.
There was, in the age before men learned to ask the gods for nothing but weather, a god who dealt only in years — who could be found, if a man wished to find him, wherever someone stood counting the seasons left and finding the number wanting. His name was Kyranos, and it was said of him, by those who troubled to say anything about him at all, that he had never once been recorded refusing a man outright. He simply named a price, and let the man decide for himself whether living longer was worth what it would cost him to keep on.
The price was never coin, and never the easy things men keep spare for an altar. Kyranos wanted a sacrifice weighed against the years themselves — ask for a little, and a little would answer; ask for much, and he would ask for much in kind, until a man learned, if he had not already suspected it, that years lent by a god are not given so much as advanced, against an account that does not close itself simply because the borrower has stopped thinking about it. And there was, past a certain point, no bargaining further, because even a god who deals in life is not, whatever men flatter themselves into believing, the source of it — only its steward, and a steward may not spend past what was entrusted to him no matter how sweetly he is asked.
Most who came to him paid once, gladly, and went home and forgot his name the way a man forgets a moneylender the day the debt is closed. A man named Straton came to him differently. He asked for years, as the others asked, but when Kyranos named the price, he did not simply pay it and rise to go. He knelt, and stayed kneeling, and said he would give what was asked and more besides — that he would serve the god, not for the years granted him but past them, for as long as he was wanted, because he did not care to be one more man who paid once and never thought of the debt again. Kyranos, who had heard a great many things offered to him across a great many years of keeping such accounts, had not until that hour heard quite that. He told the man plainly that service was not the lighter price, only the longer one — a sacrifice ends, a servant does not, not until the god who holds him says so. Straton said he understood, and did not take it back, and so the matter was settled, and in time it became something nearer to trust than to bargain, the way long service between a mortal and something greater than a mortal sometimes does.
It was out of that trust that Kyranos finally asked something of him that was not a servant’s ordinary work. There were others, he said, who had come asking for years exactly as Straton had, and had received them, and had not paid what was owed — some out of forgetting, some out of having quietly decided the account would never truly come due. Go to them, the god said, and tell them plainly what waits at the end of a debt like that: that years taken and not paid for become, eventually, a debt of the self, and the self, once it is taken instead of the payment, does not go into the ground with the body. It goes down, to the place kept for whatever refuses to be reasoned with — a name old enough by then that it needed no explaining to anyone who heard it, Tartarus, the word alone worth more than a threat to any man who still feared something. Tell them there is time left. Tell them the door is not yet shut. Only tell them, Straton — that is the whole of what I am asking of you. Not that you save them, because that was never within your reach to give. Only that whatever comes to them does not come unannounced.
He went out from the god’s presence meaning, entirely and honestly, to do exactly that. He found them without difficulty, because they were not hiding; they were exactly where men who have stopped thinking about their debts usually are, at their tables and their festivals, garlanded and loud, pouring wine out to other gods with a generosity they had never once shown the one who had actually given them the years they were spending on the pouring. And here was the difficulty he had not prepared for on the walk down from the high place — he knew some of them. Not strangers to be frightened by a stranger’s warning, but men who had clapped him on the shoulder once, women who had fed him at their own tables before he had ever knelt to any god at all, a whole firelit gathering of faces that he understood, standing at its edge with the message sitting in his throat like a stone he could not force back down, would turn the exact way faces turn the moment a familiar voice says the word Tartarus into the middle of their singing. They will laugh first, he told himself, and when they see I mean it they will not laugh, they will hate me for having walked into their one evening of joy and told them it was already spoiled behind them, that a bill was coming due they could not see and I could, and they will never forgive me for having seen it before they did. He told himself this was mercy, that a man ought not ruin a feast over a debt that might yet be settled later and quietly, without an audience. He told himself the god’s patience clearly had more room in it than the warning implied, or why else would the account still be standing after all this time with no lightning yet fallen. He told himself a great many small, reasonable things, one stacked on another, until together they made a wall high enough that he could no longer see over it to the one plain fact on the other side of it — that he was afraid, and had built himself an entire theology rather than simply say so.
He went home that night having said nothing, and the next night, and on into the seasons after, until the debt he had been sent to announce simply sat there, counting itself down in a silence he had chosen once and then, slowly, stopped noticing he had ever chosen.
The account, of course, did not care whether it had been announced. That was the one mercy Kyranos had never pretended to offer and never claimed to withhold — he had never said the debt’s coming due was conditional on being warned of it, only that the warning would have been a kindness laid on top of a fact that was going to happen regardless. And so it happened regardless, one account after another closing the way an account closes when nothing has ever been paid toward it: not gently, and not all at once, but each life reaching, without ceremony, the exact edge of what had been lent, and finding nothing behind it to carry it any further.
What waited past that edge was not the quiet dark men tell themselves to expect when they stop believing in anything at all. It was fire, first — fire that did not behave the way fire behaves in the world above, because it did not consume what it burned. It only burned it, without end, without the mercy of finally reducing flesh to ash and being done with it, so that a man went down whole and stayed whole, exactly so there would always be more of him left to burn tomorrow. And the fire gave no light worth calling light — it lit the chains and the walls and the shapes of the others chained beside you well enough to see them by, but it warmed nothing, and lit nothing so far as hope was concerned, so that a man could see, with perfect clarity, exactly how alone he was in the middle of everyone else screaming the same thing he was screaming. That was the particular cruelty of the place old enough to need no further explaining to any who heard its name: not simply pain, but pain with nothing to blur it, no fainting, no forgetting, no dark deep enough to hide in — a darkness you could see the whole shape of your own suffering inside of, forever, with the smoke of it going up and never once finishing going up, because there is no such thing, in that place, as a fire finally burning itself out.
Straton, whose own account had always stood paid in full — sacrifice given, service kept past the letter of it — went nowhere near that place. He died an old man, at peace, believing himself nothing more than a servant who had done what was asked of him. The gods who weigh such things found, when they came to weigh him, very little to set against him — the years paid for, the service kept, every ledger they opened returning the same answer, and would ordinarily have let that be the whole of it. But Kyranos, who alone among them had given the man a task beyond his own account, would not let it end there. He may pass, the god said. He earned that, and I will not take it from him — he will have everything paradise gives, in full, exactly as if he had never failed me in anything. But there was one thing I asked of him that was never for his own account at all, and he did not keep it, and I do not forgive on another man’s behalf. He will hear them. Every voice that went down that could have gone down warned and did not, because he was afraid of a supper table, he will hear the same in paradise as he would have heard anywhere else. That is not exile. That is only what he chose not to prevent, handed back to him now as the sound of his own days.
And so it is told that Straton walks in paradise with everything paradise was ever going to give him, wanting for nothing, refused nothing. But underneath all of it — under the light, under the rest that does not run out, under whatever mercy is usually enough to make a soul forget it ever feared anything — there is a sound that does not stop, and he is the only one in that whole bright country who can hear it.
It comes up from below the way smoke comes up through a floorboard, faint at first, easy for anyone else to mistake for wind or for nothing at all, and then, to him alone, unmistakable: voices, a great many of them at once and yet somehow each one distinct, the way you can still pick a single voice you know out of a crowd shouting together. He hears the fire under them before he hears the words — a low, steady roaring, like a furnace that has never once in all its burning been allowed to burn down — and then, over it, the screaming, and under the screaming, when it breaks for breath, the same handful of words surfacing again and again, in voices he recognizes, because he ate at their tables once and let them fill his cup.
Why didn’t you warn us.
Not a question anymore, not really, not after this long — just a sound their mouths still make out of habit, the way a wound aches at the old break long after it has healed everywhere else. He hears it while the light of paradise falls on him without any shadow in it at all. He was afraid. That is the whole of it, and he has had forever now to turn it over, and has never once found it to be more complicated than that.
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Nothing in Scripture says the redeemed spend eternity grieving the damned — this isn’t a claim about what heaven holds, only a picture of a debt. But God set an actual watchman once, and told him plainly what his silence would cost: “When I say unto the wicked, Thou shalt surely die; and thou givest him not warning… that wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand” (Ezekiel 3:18). Straton was never asked to save anyone — no watchman ever is, the text is careful about that twice over (Ezekiel 33:6 as well). He was only ever asked to open his mouth. A man who says nothing out of fear of an awkward table hasn’t committed a small sin because the outcome was never his to control. He’s simply decided his own comfort at that table was worth more than the one thing he was actually there to do.
