I’m glad I went to see the brethren at church this morning last night the horrors of hell seized upon me but in the morning the sun rose and so did Gods people that comforted my weary soul.
The sermon was on the story of Balaam and Balak, Balaam was hired by Balak to curse Israel but he couldn’t do it of course and ended up actually blessing Israel instead. So to use a different scheme instead they plotted to instead sent Moabite women to tempt Israel to idol worship of their false god Baal through sexual rituals of fornication and thus Israel became yolked (one) to Baal.
This is as spiritually treacherous as you can get! In the New Testament it says that those who worship false gods and sacrifice to them actually sacrifice to demons! Demons masquerade as false gods so Israel is in fact forming themself with demons!
This seems shocking to our western eyes but as Christians in the new covenant we have been just as treacherous in fact even more! And that leads me to discussing the next topic: The Adult Industry.
I had heard a sermon on pornography a few weeks back, I had listened to it a few years back but I wanted to renew my fear of it in my mind and abhor it with all my heart and see it for what it is: absolute evil filth and a perversion of what God has made for marriage namely sex. And my soul hates it with upmost hatred.
That being said I was reminded of when I first got saved and when God was purging me from my many idols and pornography was the worst and most abominable wicked practice I was doing. Jesus went to the cross for some sick loser like me! He was treated as if He was the porn addict when He wasn’t! He took my hell in my place.
He made Him who knew no sin to be sin that we might become the righteousness of God, thank you Jesus, thank you! Brethren back in those days when I would go back to the vomit of porn the sorrow and demonic dreams that would follow was such grief and spiritual oppression that I felt I cannot put into words.
It was around 4 or 5 years ago when I relapsed into it for the final time and I remember like it was just yesterday, brethren the demonic oppression and dreams I was getting it was as if hell was trying to pull me back into the world and forsake Christ, it was a Saturday night and the next day at church I went behind the building and wept, I thought in my heart: “I can’t do this to God again.” In those moments I felt the true grief of The Holy Spirit for beholding such evil. It was as if He was literally taken away from me at least that’s what I felt like.
I haven’t felt a darkness like that since and I don’t plan on going back, Christian! There are spiritual forces at play when you dabble with porn! It’s more than you gazing upon strangers fornicating it’s much more wicked than you can imagine, in fact back then I truly didn’t know the extent of evil I was doing beholding those images, but so much makes sense now.
The sermon I said I listened to a week ago talked about the spiritual implications and the link to the occult and demonic forces of pornography and it was utterly awful, I had heard it years ago but hearing it again and then the sermon I heard yesterday about the Israelites becoming one with the god Baal made me understand the spiritual implications and that it’s so much more than just pleasuring yourself to images is so much more dark and disturbing.
With these thoughts and realizations through those sermons and The Holy Spirit tugging at me I realized what I needed to do and that was denounce the industry and expose the demonic roots behind it and what people are actually viewing and what goes on behind the scenes and warn those indulging in these things for the sake of their soul as a watchman. So I said here I am Lord send me.
My findings have been horrific and have made me feel so sick I have to take breaks in intervals researching because it’s just such evil. I’m convinced that the industry is Satan’s digital Throne and as Jesus says in the book of revelation: “The Deep Things of Satan.” So by Gods grace I will dive into what we could call Satan’s Throne
I’ve used chat gpt to research for me otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to do this because who knows what would’ve been found by me on accident. There’s nothing new under the sun let’s go back to Israel’s days 1000s of years ago. During Baal worship it was done in public and in high places and temples with temple prostitutes at the altar built to Baal.
There would be onlookers viewing the sexual acts hoping it would bring a connection to Baal and they receive a blessing and spiritual powers, and even Israel (Gods People) would start look upon these things and participate they would become one with this demon Baal and would forsake God and God would eventually punish them with plagues and would kill thousands of them.
And so here we are in the modern age, and in the new covenant with Jesus as our High Priest Holy and Above All. And the phone is the altar and we go to our select porn site and look upon this evil and the act itself on the screen is the ritual between two strangers and you are becoming spiritually bound to these strangers and ultimately to all sorts of demons! That same spirit of Baal lives on today through the porn industry. Brethren are you hearing what I’m trying to say!
You are joining yourself with demons by viewing this great evil! That’s what I was doing and it’s no wonder I was in such torment back then, instead of hope for a spiritual blessing it’s now hope for entertainment to satisfy your lusts and you are in a sense sacrificing your body to demons and the devil thus exposing yourself to all sorts of spiritual bondage guilt, and shame. And you’re stuck in a vicious addiction and insanity.
We ought to be repulsed by such a truth, and upon my findings that brought me to tears there was info from ChatGPT on a 15 old girl that was missing but was eventually found through videos on PornHub of her being abused that they didn’t take down until later.
When you are clicking on these sites you are condoning and fueling and even essentially supporting these sorts of unspeakable evil. Also there was a woman’s testimony of during a scene she had a gun pointed to her head being forced to perform which the viewer is of course unaware of.
These are the acts you are supporting by viewing this. There are more account of woman taking their lives in this industry, drug abuse, occult practices and demonic rituals, child exploitation, rape. There’s an account of a woman named April that got saved she said God gave her a dream of one of her old shoots and she saw the hidden reality. The whole room was full of demons and crawling around influencing each person.
Christian (That is if you really are born again) you are playing with the powers of hell and Satan itself and these things I mentioned the demons behind the scenes are influencing these behaviors and are largely responsible. You are becoming partakers and openly embracing these things as okay and in fact becoming partakers with demons. You are saying: “Jesus I don’t want to worship your image, I want to worship these images and myself and pleasure myself and join myself to demons.”
I’ve had enough of the self help pity parties, as men we have no excuse for this evil. I had no excuse! I had nobody to blame but myself and my sin, when being exposed to it in junior high that was my doing but there is liberty and freedom in Christ. We ought to be ashamed and thank Christ for not destroying us for such spiritual adultery.
There’s a poll I found saying that only 14% of professing Christians feel enough conviction to quit. And over half of are comfortable with viewing this evil. It’s spiritual warfare, Satan seeks for your soul to be damned to hell and yolked to demons the same way he tempted the Jews in the old testament so it’s the same today.
I can’t name any more findings I feel sickened from what I’ve named alone and I can’t do it, if you can be praying for me concerning this heavy task. I plan on Lordwilling having a video exposing this great evil that has so many bound and professing believers bound and at great possibility deceived, and also a blog post for it expounding more on it and exposing it.
ChatGPT has shown much already I can’t view anymore facts it’s too much and I need time to pray and for God to strengthen my heart.
As it says in revelation concerning the world system and by large this evil industry ran by Satan himself and the fate of this industry and those who participate in the worship of Baal:
“And he cried out with a mighty voice, saying, “Fallen, fallen is Babylon the great! And she has become a dwelling place of demons and a prison of every unclean spirit, and a prison of every unclean bird and a prison of every unclean and hateful beast. For all the nations have drunk of the wine of the wrath of her sexual immorality, and the kings of the earth have committed sexual immorality with her, and the merchants of the earth have become rich by the power of her sensuality.” And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, “Come out of her, my people, so that you will not participate in her sins and receive of her plagues; for her sins have piled up as high as heaven, and God has remembered her iniquities. For this reason in one day her plagues will come, pestilence and mourning and famine, and she will be burned up with fire; for the Lord God who judges her is strong. “And the kings of the earth, who committed sexual immorality and lived sensuously with her, will cry and lament over her when they see the smoke of her burning, standing at a distance because of the fear of her torment, saying, ‘Woe, woe, the great city, Babylon, the strong city! For in one hour your judgment has come.’”
Revelation 18:2-5, 8-10
You don’t want to play with this thing. It very much indeed can cost you your soul.
“but I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman to lust for her has already committed adultery with her in his heart. But if your right eye makes you stumble, tear it out and throw it from you; for it is better for you to lose one of the parts of your body, than for your whole body to be thrown into hell. And if your right hand makes you stumble, cut it off and throw it from you; for it is better for you to lose one of the parts of your body, than for your whole body to go into hell.”
Matthew 5:28-30
“Therefore let him who thinks he stands take heed that he does not fall. No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man, but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it. Therefore, my beloved, flee from idolatry. Is not the cup of blessing which we bless a sharing in the blood of Christ? Is not the bread which we break a sharing in the body of Christ? Since there is one bread, we who are many are one body, for we all partake of the one bread. Look at the nation Israel. Are not those who eat the sacrifices sharers in the altar? What do I mean then? That a thing sacrificed to idols is anything, or that an idol is anything? No, but I say that the things which the Gentiles sacrifice, they sacrifice to demons and not to God. And I do not want you to become sharers in demons. You cannot drink the cup of the Lord and the cup of demons. You cannot partake of the table of the Lord and the table of demons. Or do we provoke the Lord to jealousy? Are we stronger than He?”
1 Corinthians 10:12-14, 16-22
And if you are reading this and without Jesus, don’t let shame keep you from going to Him. No matter what you’ve looked upon He will pardon you and receive you with Love! Repent and believe the gospel amen.
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