I know that The Scriptures say the people are destroyed for a lack of knowledge, namely the knowledge of the gospel of Jesus Christ. What I believe the battle I always face is seeing Jesus more as “the truth” but not as an intimate person and God to commune and fellowship with as a believer in His name.
In revelation chapter 2 in Jesus’s letter to the Chruch of Ephesus he commends them for their zeal with opposing liars that pervert the gospel and their toil and solid doctrine. However he rebukes them for losing their first love for Him.
How it’s so easy for us to get busy with The Lords work and lose our love! If work for the gospel flows out of intellectual knowledge of the Bible and no love it’s idolatry and wicked. Surely I am too stupid to be a man, I have not the understanding of a man!
Who has ascended to heaven and come down? What’s His name and His son’s name? Surely you know tell me! Because though all I think about is God and the scriptures I still find myself forgetting the basics: that is love from a pure conscience. I get so tired of having so many words yet little power, I’m weary of myself. I can only lament my condition and ask for The Most High God to help change my heart.
It’s so easy to make good things an idol, I believe with having OCD/Scrupulosity I’m more prone to this than the next man, I’ll find myself clinging to The Scriptures but not Jesus. Like the Pharisees, they read the scriptures vigorously but they failed to see that the entire Word speaks of Christ who is to come and was right in front of them.
Though I know these things, I also know the grace of God. Only He can change my heart on this matter so yes I do hate pride we’re suppose to. Love covers a multitude of sins.
MY STORY OF RELIGIOUS OCD 