Habitation of Devils the adult industry for what it is

Revelation 18:2 and the Adult Industry: The Whore of Babylon Unmasked I. The Verse Revelation 18:2. And he cried mightily with a strong voice, saying, Babylon the great is fallen, is fallen, and is become the habitation of devils, and the hold of every foul spirit, and a cage of every unclean and hateful bird. […]

Untitled-unbelief

I see myself as a mistake of birth and a creature too low to be called a human any compliments I believe them but I don’t believe me. Why can’t I just die I would be at peace I wouldn’t even want a memorial. Why did God create me to curse me with this mind […]

Used to help the afflicted and utterly broken and enraged

I was able to speak at a men’s roundtable on Zoom this morning. It went well, and there was tremendous feedback from other men sharing their afflictions, along with their bouts of despair over religious OCD. Everyone spoke well of me and said I’m going to help a lot of people, but as usual, the […]

Dread and embitterment

I could burst asunder from how utterly sick God makes me feel, I find Him good but not “safe” on a whim he could damn me, just how He nuked the man trying to stop the tabernacle from falling because he touched it. I’m suppose to praise knowing Christ Himself is torturing the ungodly as […]

Accusation on high to the almighty. Where were you?

An old journal entry Why didn’t Christ help those Puritans that killed themselves? I tremble in my own heart at my anger at God concerning this. I know He’s not evil, but it hurts so bad that people live with this mental crucifiction. I’m tired.d. I look at other Christians—I get tired of hearing it. […]

Navigating sorrow in evangelical church praise culture

I have wanted to talk about this for a while, concerning sorrow, grief, lamentations, and in modern context, depression — one could even say anxiety — inside church culture.I don’t despise the church by any means. The church of Christ is beautiful. So are God’s people. We have spots and blemishes. Sometimes we have the […]

Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners the book that made me realize I was not alone

Table of Contents ABOUT THIS PARAPHRASE……………………………………………………………………………………………………1 PREFACE…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..2 GRACE ABOUNDING…………………………………………………………………………………………………………….4 An Object of Wrath………………………………………………………………………………………………………….4 Conviction and Reformation………………………………………………………………………………………………5 Hope and Fear……………………………………………………………………………………………………………….7 The Storm of Doubt……………………………………………………………………………………………………….13 Established in the Truth………………………………………………………………………………………………….15 My Fall from Grace………………………………………………………………………………………………………..18 The Path to Deliverance………………………………………………………………………………………………….25 Honey from the Lion………………………………………………………………………………………………………30 Trials through Illness……………………………………………………………………………………………………..32 My Call to Ministry…………………………………………………………………………………………………………33 Pride and Spiritual Gifts…………………………………………………………………………………………………..36 Lies and Slanders………………………………………………………………………………………………………….37 MY ARREST […]

The zero that became the most dangerous thing in the room

You sent screenshots of Naoya’s flashback — the moment the golden boy of the Zenin clan walks into the room expecting to find a pathetic face on the family failure, the man with zero cursed energy, the one they threw in the pit with the spirits. And instead of finding broken, he found something his […]

Known or just used

I could say that I feel like a corpse, but that’s not sufficient to elaborate on the sheer deadness that I feel inside at this hour. I was watching cases of parents reacting to the suicidal deaths of their children. I have had my funeral flash into my head. I can’t understand why people would […]

We are just like that

Have felt like the man from the epistle of Peter, nearsighted that has forgotten if my sins are cleansed. [IF] how can you know? In fact I don’t want to think about the work I’m not a son of the devil or God I’m just existing looking at this shattered reflection that people see not […]