(Entry from yesterday.) If there was no hell I’d blow myself up, along with nobody with me. The only casualty is me and it’s not actually a casualty just a liability that’s been severed from this earth. If my experience with God is such so I don’t want heaven with him im not worthy in the first place and the thought of hell I can’t bear the work. Just let me die already
Read More ResentmentThere was a case I remember — this woman who had multiple different ailments, and people would shun her for her appearance. She’s actually a well-known speaker, and I think she has books published, but people called her the ugliest woman alive. And when I heard her story, and heard how she couldn’t find even one comment defending her on the post I couldn’t stop weeping. I couldn’t stop crying. It’s just unthinkable to me. And I yearn for people to be saved. I want anyone with ailments, with all my heart, to be able to look forward to the resurrection. God above with all my soul I say this….
just like Jesus asking Mary about Lazarus, and her saying, “I know I will see him in the resurrection,” and then the Carpenter himself wept — not because he couldn’t raise Lazarus from the dead, but because of the fact that this world, this is the product of what was not meant to be. Death was never part of the plan.
Read More Mockery of the disabled {rage} [tears] and standing up for the afflictedThe devil and God can “give” one has eternal weight the other has eternal weight. One satisfies temporal and the soul is lost eternally in thy flame. One is temporal as well (our time on earth for now.) but satisfied until death and the soul is in eternal life satisfied forever when this life passes. The counterfeit or the Gold than Jesus offers? Decide what you’ll regret the most later the fact that you chose wrong and that the fact that you had the choice of life but chose eternal death. You won’t regret choosing life. Decide
Read More THE CHRONICLEs Book 5 — the Artist Who Asked, and Was Given EverythingAn entry from a few days ago I think the worst day of this year arguably, in a cognitive better mindset now, and the Lord gave me comfort through other people later on. There is no clean way to express mental illness & health. A lot of grief could’ve been avoided if I would’ve been honest with God from the get go those years back when I started reading the scriptures serving like I wasn’t angry, angry enough to die at God furious suppressed it all, masking it day in and day out at church services serving doing everything. And eventually, my mind burst asunder just like Judas did when he hung himself and that was the first attempt, the second attempt was the same thing. There is healing in expressing grief, covering up sorrows, will utterly erode you inwardly. Psychologytoday.com is where you can get help with therapy, but you have to want the help. Nobody can make you. It’s not that I doubt the truth. It’s that I believe it’s so much that it utterly scares me ruins me almost even in a sense and the very thing I grasp that’s pure and frankly the only reason to be alive: 1 Corinthians 15:19 (ESV)
“If in Christ we have hope in this life only, we are of all people most to be pitied.” It’s not that God is evil. It’s that we live in a fallen world. He doesn’t promise He will-heal you from everything but he will give you Hope in the
madness
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[the quality or state of being mad: such as
a: a state of severe mental illness]
The explosion at Harvey Dent’s location occurs as well. Gasoline had previously been spilled on Harvey’s face, and from the explosion, half of his face gets caught on fire, getting disfigured. And that births the new name Two-Face. This starts the moral decay of Harvey, who was Gotham’s White Knight. Now he is going to fall into moral decay.
The Joker got multiple people from this, all out of deceitfulness. Rachel died. Harvey dies psychologically. Batman survives, but he carries the guilt of Rachel and mourns the loss of her. Gotham loses its White Knight, Harvey Dent.
It’s astonishingly calculated and accurate — this use of conning, lying, and deceitfulness — and the diagnostic criteria. Two criteria have already been met.
Two things I seek; death or to be healed from this mental torture.
UTTER DREAD.
Read More Untitled lamentThe “bastard son” language is the rawest thing in all of this, and it deserves more than quick reassurance. What it names is a felt sense that the relationship runs on transaction — approached when power, knowledge, or provision is needed — rather than on belovedness. Discipled toward avoiding condemnation rather than held as a son who is already secure.
Read More I Just Couldn’t Wear a Heartfelt Smile in This World**Ezekiel 28:13,15 (ESV)**
“You were in Eden, the garden of God; every precious stone was your covering… You were blameless in your ways from the day you were created, till unrighteousness was found in you.”
Read More The Chronicles book 4 “the fall” of him – the question they should’ve never askedConcerning a Man Who Had a Bible Verse in His Biography
Read More THE CHRONICLES book 3 The sentencing of a man with religion but no faithThat time it all slows down; yea that defining moment. I’d rather regret trying than never done anything at all out of fear. I don’t know the outcome I never do.
Read More Make the Decision You Won’t Regret