These next posts I will try to keep in order as best I can. I’ve worked on many of them at once, and my thoughts have been scattered. If something seems out of place, that is why. My prayer is to stay consistent in the blog and the ministry — not for my own sake, but for the sake of God and the gospel. Though I feel unfit and disqualified, I must continue.
Right now I am seized with the horror of sin — especially lust. It feels as if I could throw myself into a pit. There is no comfort to be found. I yearn to be utterly undone, to burst asunder like Judas (Acts 1:18).
I have slept and woken up inside the same nightmare. God, why did You create such a being as me? Did it please You in the hidden place to form this creature? O Lord, fix what is broken.
MY STORY OF RELIGIOUS OCD 