Tag: scruples

If You Extract the Precious from the Worthless

1. Jeremiah 15:15–21 is the second of five raw “Confessions” — the most unguarded prayers in the prophetic corpus, complaint (vv. 15–18) followed by God’s answer (vv. 19–21).
2. Verse 18’s “deceitful brook” accusation is severe and direct — Jeremiah tells God to his face that God has failed to deliver, using the ancient Near Eastern image of a dry streambed that betrayed a traveler’s trust.
3. Jeremiah 20:7’s “you have deceived me” is even stronger — the Hebrew patah carries overtones of seduction/coercion, among the most severe accusatory language addressed to God anywhere in scripture.
4. God’s response contains no counter-accusation and no rebuke of the accusation itself — restoration and recommissioning follow immediately, on the same terms as the original call.
5. “Precious” (v.16’s message) versus “worthless” (v.18’s despair) is a distinction between two things Jeremiah can utter, not a verdict that his pain was illegitimate.
6. Restoration in v.19 is not contingent on retracting the accusation — shuv (return) is reorientation, not an apology God withholds mercy for.
7. Anger at God is empirically common, not a marker of abnormal faith — Exline and Pargament’s research finds a majority of adults report having experienced it.
8. Protest toward God (addressed, argued, spoken) predicts better outcomes than silent, unaddressed anger — this is the clinical shadow of exactly what Jeremiah does in this text.
9. Divine struggle intensifies when suffering is tied to core identity rather than external circumstance — which is precisely the terrain a psychiatric condition of the mind itself occupies.
10. Blasphemous obsessions are a documented OCD subtype, and their egodystonic horror is evidence against, not for, actual unbelief.
11. Neither illness nor theology gets full explanatory custody — the mechanism can intensify the expression without the underlying pain being noise.
12. “Wondering why he didn’t destroy me” is the disorientation of a ledger expecting collection that mercy declines to make — Romans 2:4, Psalm 103:10.
13. This document holds prophetic office and vocational calling as distinct — the pattern transfers; the office does not.
14. “Uttering the precious” doesn’t require the protest to have ended first — Jeremiah’s rawest complaint (ch. 20) comes after this one, not before it.

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bitter while called & the scroll of lamentation mourning and woe

“The scroll demands the eater’s blood.” The reader’s own formulation is sound
biblical theology. To eat the scroll is to consent to be changed by it — to let a message of
lament become the substance of one’s inner life. The prophet who eats qinim va-hegeh
va-hi becomes a man who moans and wails; he is conformed to what he carries. This is
why Ezekiel’s very body becomes the message in the sign-acts: the internalization is so
total that the word is enacted in his flesh. The one who carries lament pays for it in his
own person — in sleeplessness, in bitterness, in the seven days of appalled silence,
ultimately (for the prophets and for Christ) in blood. The message of the cross is that
God Himself finally eats this scroll to the dregs: the Word made flesh consumes the full
bitterness of judgment in His own body on the tree. Every under-messenger who bleeds
for the word he carries is conformed to that pattern, not inventing a new one

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Do Not Awaken Love Before the Time: Theology, Clinical Psychology, and the Aesthetics of Deferred and Belated Love

The ending’s simultaneity of devastation and gift. The finale is deliberately, structurally bittersweet — devastation and gift are inseparable. Kaori is gone; but Kōsei has been given back his life, his hearing, his music, and the knowledge that he was loved. Your Lie In April The beauty of what happened is inseparable from the fact that it could not continue. This is the precise structure of bittersweetness.

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Case Study: Conditional Existence

Preface
The first case in this series examined an entry written from inside acute scrupulous torment, where the affliction attached itself to doctrine. This entry is different in kind, and the difference is the reason it merits its own study.
Here the subject is not primarily doubting his salvation. He is calculating his worth. The theological anxiety has not disappeared — it runs underneath everything — but it has been displaced by something more concrete and, in its own way, more dangerous: a wager in which continued existence is made contingent on a vocational outcome.
This case is offered because the pattern is common, under-recognized, and easily mistaken for something admirable. In Christian settings especially, the language it uses — resolve, calling, counting the cost, failure is not an option — sounds like devotion. It is worth learning to hear the difference.

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Contempt for the poor ®

I can’t forget how when I worked at sprouts there was a homeless man outside w/ mental affliction he would walk in circles and we would talk about our similar struggles. Hearing voices and the torment of it and the meds not helping him

I saw people day in and day out entering that store mock that man and gossip about his condition spending insufferable amounts of dollars on groceries. (Some not all by any means.)

The thought struck me that most of these attend church, the Saturday spent mocking this man the next day lifting hands in praise. I wonder on that day how many that held the poor in contempt will lift their eyes in hell the same people they looked down upon now in glory above them with Jesus.

Now asking them for water when they didn’t give a drop or a morsel to them. Sermon after sermon you heard and Christ didn’t dwell in your hearts and you despised the poor man that was far from any religion you thought you would never make it and wrote off. But now how the tables have turned.

Their condemnation is just.

**Ezekiel 8:18 (ESV)**

“Therefore I will act in wrath. My eye will not spare, nor will I have pity. And though they cry in my ears with a loud voice, I will not hear them.”

**Luke 16:24 (ESV)**

“And he called out, ‘Father Abraham, have mercy on me, and send Lazarus to dip the end of his finger in water and cool my tongue, for I am in anguish in this flame.'”

**Matthew 25:42–43 (ESV)**

“For I was hungry and you gave me no food, I was thirsty and you gave me no drink, I was a stranger and you did not welcome me, naked and you did not clothe me, sick and in prison and you did not visit me.”

**James 2:3 (ESV)**

“and if you pay attention to the one who wears the fine clothing and say, ‘You sit here in a good place,’ while you say to the poor man, ‘You stand over there,’ or, ‘Sit down at my feet,'”

**Proverbs 17:5 (ESV)**

“Whoever mocks the poor insults his Maker; he who is glad at calamity will not go unpunished.”

I wonder on that day if those people will see that man from sprouts and remember.

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Where is the debater of this age? God has made foolish the wisdom of this world.

A Strong Word Before We Begin If you have ever walked away from a conversation about God feeling out-argued, embarrassed, or quietly afraid that the “smart people” have figured something out that leaves your faith looking naïve—this piece is for you. The aim here is not to help you win arguments or consign anyone to […]

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