Deconstruction is tragedy often paved the way by false ministers and religious hypocrites who are not of Christ. I follow The Carpenter but I still wrestle with these things.
Read More Christian Deconstruction when people denounce their faith because of religious traumaThis entry was from a few weeks ago I’m in a better place mentally now thank God. I was able to go see the brethren in the church for a short time. Hearing a message on the fall of Saul was a timely reminder of what pride can do to a man. I wrestle with […]
Read More SAULS RISE AND FALLSpiraled out last night now I’m here.
Read More A living contradiction the cycling of madnessYesterday in despair and as my mind was racing I heard in my head: “I’ve seen you at your highest and lowest.” I can only attribute it to The Lord, my countenance falls so easily because of my sin. I have the accuser on one hand whispering his lies and a condemnatory conscience on the […]
Read More I Saw YouI’m too afraid to kill myself but if I could utterly destroy myself I would, why did I have to be born? God why? Why am I even here on this earth, so many words but such little power and yet lately it’s as if The Holy Spirit has departed I find myself falling into […]
Read More Dejection Of LifeWe had a night of worship Tuesday, the topic was surrender. The Christian life is all about surrender and repentance we indeed have to put to death the deeds of the body and live holy for Christ. However I find myself getting stuck with a legalistic approach with this, I’ll obsess over killing sin to […]
Read More SurrenderI’m glad I went to see the brethren at church this morning last night the horrors of hell seized upon me but in the morning the sun rose and so did Gods people that comforted my weary soul. The sermon was on the story of Balaam and Balak, Balaam was hired by Balak to curse […]
Read More Destroying Satan’s ThroneTruly I tell you I want to give it all to Christ and His Kingdom, I grind my teeth and try so hard. I don’t want intellectual knowledge of the gospel but to have companionship with Christ. I don’t know what to do, I know my life isn’t my own and anything I’ve been given […]
Read More PowerLust has been a continually sin I have to specifically die to everyday, my flesh and the devil tempt me all the day concerning it especially at my job to gaze upon women with lustful intent. Confessions of trials and sin leads to healing and victory. So I want to go on this journey on […]
Read More A Covenant With My Eyes
MY STORY OF RELIGIOUS OCD 