Dejection Of Life

I’m too afraid to kill myself but if I could utterly destroy myself I would, why did I have to be born? God why? Why am I even here on this earth, so many words but such little power and yet lately it’s as if The Holy Spirit has departed I find myself falling into […]

Outer Darkness

A few days ago I was about to take a nap and I imagined myself being at the bottom of the ocean, for some reason at times I imagine this and it utterly terrifies me. The pitch blackness and vastly unaware of what’s going on if I were to be down there. And then another […]

Horrors of Eternity

“My heart is in anguish within me; the horrors of death have fallen upon me.”‭‭Psalm‬ ‭55‬:‭4‬ ‭ESV‬‬ This is a night of doubt and terror in my soul, my heart has been stricken wondering if I’m real or reprobate. From what scripture speaks the gate is so narrow and few find eternal life, yet when […]