Deceitful Heart

I’ve been praying earnestly that my heart doesn’t harden, though I know it’s satan lying to me and my own wicked heart I’ve been imagining God as this evil God who is ready to throw his creation into hell. Or wondering why the fall every happened and why let humanity continue if there were going […]

Self Hate.

It’s always been easy to look for the best in others and the worst in myself. It hasn’t changed much over the years, my coping method is to simply not think about myself. I wouldn’t even call it coping but simply suppressing, in a way I don’t want to be me yet I don’t want […]

Waiting For The End

When I was in Jr.High I was playing tap tap revenge in my moms car and there was a song called “WAITING FOR THE END.” By Lincoln Park (I don’t recall if I knew about the band.) I played that song on that app everyday I for some reason felt the pain in the song, […]

Conflicting Thoughts

I read in an article that the author was always obsessed over the warning passages of Scripture and every verse about unbelievers applied to her. I understood her completely, it’s as if I could meditate on these dreadful passages with no sense of assurance myself. Like holding a bomb you don’t know will detonate, in […]