This is an old article by I found on the history of how the church dealt with the awful reality of scrupulosity and religious despair Religious despair is the overwhelming loss of hope in God’s mercy and forgiveness. It is the conviction that one’s sins are too great to be pardoned, that salvation is impossible, […]
Read More Church history behind suicide and religious despairAn old article on memory Harding, remembering everything that’s forgotten, forgetting everything that’s remembered
Read More Memory Hoarding in Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)BABYLON THE GREAT, MOTHER OF PROSTITUTES AND OF EARTH’S ABOMINATIONS (Rev 17:5).
While the historical referent of this vision encompasses the totalizing systems of worldly power-Rome in John’s day, and every empire of idolatrous commerce since-the pornography industry stands as perhaps the most precise modern analogue to the Harlot’s economy. It traffics in the same merchandise: human bodies and human souls (Rev 18:13). It enchants by the same sorcery: pharmakeia, the drugging of the nations (Rev 18:23). And it will meet the same end: total, catastrophic, irreversible exposure and ruin.
This study traces three movements: first, the spiritual anatomy of Babylon as described in Revelation 17-18; second, the precise correspondence between Babylon’s character and the modern pornographic industry; and third—most terrifyingly—what the Day of the Lord means for those images that men now love, and how they will become objects of absolute horror.
Biblical study on hook up culture sex and the lasting physical and spiritual effects of it and it’s utterly utterly terrible. The biggest scandal is that I’m tempted to do the very thing that could destroy my soul. I’d rather be hung by a noose than go to a harlot’s house or cheat on my […]
Read More The phone Screen as the High Place, the Swipe as the Sacrifice and the Plague That FollowsA fiery anger that I cannot express. Namely, that I would not take it out on any other person, but that I could only redirect it at myself. Because it is utterly evil to physically harm another person because of my inward afflictions and to redirect it toward anybody else, I would never do such […]
Read More A tragedy – the day of my birthTonight was Wednesday night for the students. Very convicting, good message. A couple of them were baptized. I was rejoicing in my spirit about this. There can be an emotional response to the Gospel but not actually a spiritual one—namely, not true repentance. But with the way these kids have been pursuing the Carpenter, I […]
Read More Worn.This is an entry from around two months ago (possibly) I’ve had to repent of my foolish thoughts accusing God. I was embittered by the holiday theatrics, and everything being so happy—joy, joy, merry music—was an utter sound torture. Not that I’m blaspheming His church, but just overloaded. It’s as if I could’ve drowned in […]
Read More Rage at the most high God worship as torture not praiseChains of salvation that pierce everyday I cannot remove them. I would rather live right than in hell lift up my eyes There are no sufficient words I can use as a metaphorical allegorical expression of such beckoning darkness I feel at this hour. The start of a new year ah yes the hell it’s […]
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MY STORY OF RELIGIOUS OCD 