Worn.

Tonight was Wednesday night for the students. Very convicting, good message. A couple of them were baptized. I was rejoicing in my spirit about this. There can be an emotional response to the Gospel but not actually a spiritual one—namely, not true repentance. But with the way these kids have been pursuing the Carpenter, I […]

Rage at the most high God worship as torture not praise

This is an entry from around two months ago (possibly) I’ve had to repent of my foolish thoughts accusing God. I was embittered by the holiday theatrics, and everything being so happy—joy, joy, merry music—was an utter sound torture. Not that I’m blaspheming His church, but just overloaded. It’s as if I could’ve drowned in […]

Jesus’ Words to Sinners vs. Hypocrites – A Comprehensive Study

Deep Research on chat gbt on how Jesus talked to people differently. Throughout the Gospels, Jesus Christ demonstrated remarkable discernment in how He spoke to different people. He extended compassion and gentle grace to everyday people and notorious sinners, yet He reserved His fiercest rebukes for religious hypocrites and the spiritually “lukewarm.” This contrast is […]

Regret

Chains of salvation that pierce everyday I cannot remove them. I would rather live right than in hell lift up my eyes There are no sufficient words I can use as a metaphorical allegorical expression of such beckoning darkness I feel at this hour. The start of a new year ah yes the hell it’s […]

No amount of exchange

The pleasure is temporary—“for a season,” which is Hebrews 11:25, Moses choosing “rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season.” You know the verse without writing the reference. It’s in your bones.

Revelations of schizoaffective disorder

Haven’t journaled in a while. It’s a strange feeling. I’ve had many bitter nights walking around this temple. Rambling for hours. Tears of blood, affliction. Because of the scroll of my life, my sin. I find my life to be utterly so repugnant and futile—the utter vanity and sheer chaos that goes on in my […]

The Destructive Nature of Sexual Sin: A Comprehensive Study from Scripture and Reformed Theology

A biblical extensive deep dive on sexual sin, how to avoid it in the destructive nature of it, not only for you but others. Don’t play with it. Don’t even think about it run as if hell was underneath you.

“Does it do you well to be angry?”

“Give and it will be given to you good measure pressed down shaken together and running over will be put into your lap For with the measure you use it will be measured back to you.” Looking at this verse sickens me. Just enrages me more, yes I have had things given to me but […]

CLIPS FOR EDITS

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The Architecture of Spiritual Torment: A Theological-Psychological Analysis

This was an AI generated this for me based off my writing. I can’t remember when or where it was. My brain is utterly fried. However, the gospel and the mission goes forward to wipe out the devil and his angels. Part 1: The Double Bind of Salvation The Impossibility of Grace. Your torment centers […]