._,There are times I’m happy that I was born other times I am such filled with existential crisis of my miserable state, mainly the condition of my sin and reproach against God and the entire universe there have been times I’ve considered my very existence to be set itself. I would estimate that a trampled wasp that is a despised creature is sometimes held in better esteem than my condition if in the end he says depart from me. I never knew you. I just asked the Lord to grant me the ability if I am in the lake of fire, it’s a bless him and not curse him. The sounds of the enemies of the cross, the rage, the blasphemy and an endless weeping of 1 billion years. I would like to stand out among them and be praying for deliverance, though the eternal state is fixed there is no reversing it things such as purgatory is of such hogwash and futility. This is why we need to lean on the Lord to God, not the clergy. We need the body of Christ, but ultimately the people are destroyed for a lack of knowledge a lot of times birth out of ignorance. I don’t want anyone to be damned. The only one is Satan and his reprobate angels to fold profligate piece of filth, utterly foolish, thinking he usurpthe throne of God.
MY STORY OF RELIGIOUS OCD 