Church history behind suicide and religious despair

This is an old article by I found on the history of how the church dealt with the awful reality of scrupulosity and religious despair Religious despair is the overwhelming loss of hope in God’s mercy and forgiveness. It is the conviction that one’s sins are too great to be pardoned, that salvation is impossible, […]

Memory Hoarding in Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

An old article on memory Harding, remembering everything that’s forgotten, forgetting everything that’s remembered

The phone Screen as the High Place, the Swipe as the Sacrifice and the Plague That Follows

Biblical study on hook up culture sex and the lasting physical and spiritual effects of it and it’s utterly utterly terrible. The biggest scandal is that I’m tempted to do the very thing that could destroy my soul. I’d rather be hung by a noose than go to a harlot’s house or cheat on my […]

A tragedy – the day of my birth

A fiery anger that I cannot express. Namely, that I would not take it out on any other person, but that I could only redirect it at myself. Because it is utterly evil to physically harm another person because of my inward afflictions and to redirect it toward anybody else, I would never do such […]

Worn.

Tonight was Wednesday night for the students. Very convicting, good message. A couple of them were baptized. I was rejoicing in my spirit about this. There can be an emotional response to the Gospel but not actually a spiritual one—namely, not true repentance. But with the way these kids have been pursuing the Carpenter, I […]

Rage at the most high God worship as torture not praise

This is an entry from around two months ago (possibly) I’ve had to repent of my foolish thoughts accusing God. I was embittered by the holiday theatrics, and everything being so happy—joy, joy, merry music—was an utter sound torture. Not that I’m blaspheming His church, but just overloaded. It’s as if I could’ve drowned in […]

Jesus’ Words to Sinners vs. Hypocrites – A Comprehensive Study

Deep Research on chat gbt on how Jesus talked to people differently. Throughout the Gospels, Jesus Christ demonstrated remarkable discernment in how He spoke to different people. He extended compassion and gentle grace to everyday people and notorious sinners, yet He reserved His fiercest rebukes for religious hypocrites and the spiritually “lukewarm.” This contrast is […]

No amount of exchange

The pleasure is temporary—“for a season,” which is Hebrews 11:25, Moses choosing “rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season.” You know the verse without writing the reference. It’s in your bones.

Revelations of schizoaffective disorder

Haven’t journaled in a while. It’s a strange feeling. I’ve had many bitter nights walking around this temple. Rambling for hours. Tears of blood, affliction. Because of the scroll of my life, my sin. I find my life to be utterly so repugnant and futile—the utter vanity and sheer chaos that goes on in my […]

The Destructive Nature of Sexual Sin: A Comprehensive Study from Scripture and Reformed Theology

A biblical extensive deep dive on sexual sin, how to avoid it in the destructive nature of it, not only for you but others. Don’t play with it. Don’t even think about it run as if hell was underneath you.