Descent into Darkness & The Steadfast Love of The Lord

An angel could come from heaven and tell me that I’m not headed for hell and I probably wouldn’t believe it, it would take Christ to physically step out of heaven once again and talk to me face to face to comfort my soul. A perverse generation asks for a sign but I’m befit of […]

Relational OCD & Despair

It’s been nice to have energy at last, I feel like a human again, the medication to help with fatigue from MS has helped tremendously. Since I could remember I’ve been fearful of rejection and disappointing others, it’s no suprise that when I got saved I was continually fearful of God. Afraid that in His […]

Seeking a Sign

I Recently got diagnosed with MS (multiple sclerosis) (an autoimmune disease that eats away at the protective nerves and causes nerve damage.) Truly I cannot thank Jesus enough for it being caught early and to give me answers to why I’m so tired all the time/ fatigued. The doctor started me on medication to help […]

Heaven

When I get there (that little voice in my head says: “if I get there.” I want to see Christ first, if I receive any reward or diadems I’ll cast it to the ground, He deserves it all I didn’t earn any of it. I have so many question’s, I wonder if I’ll even care […]

Hatred For Intellectual Pride

I know that The Scriptures say the people are destroyed for a lack of knowledge, namely the knowledge of the gospel of Jesus Christ. What I believe the battle I always face is seeing Jesus more as “the truth” but not as an intimate person and God to commune and fellowship with as a believer […]

More Knowledge is More Sorrow

As of late if I’m not anxious I’m sad and when I’m anxious I’m sad, but the worse is when its both, I can barely feel the presence of God and the comfort of The Holy Spirit. My eyes are wasting away from grief and pain. As a wise man of God said: “If one […]

Misery in Obedience Convinced in Omission

I’ve been convicted of not obeying God as I’ve felt The Holy Spirit has been telling me to, I have continually heard: “I want you to let go of gaming.” In my head over and over the last year or so, and my soul sinks within every time I hear it. Though I try to […]